i'm your role model

2011-10-16T20:36:00.003+08:00

october 12th 2011,

hari yang di mana aku tidak dapat lupakan.

aku seperti diriku sendiri pada malam itu.

aku hanya bagaikan memakai topeng 'gembira'

hanya untuk menutup kesedihan yang ada pada diriku ini.

memang tidak dapat aku nafikan..

senyuman dia mampu membuat aku hampir2 mengalirkan airmata.

tetapi aku sudah berjanji kepada dia utk tidak membuat dia

merasa tidak selesa.

setiap kali aku pandang wajahnya itu.

aku terkenangkan tentang masa kita bersama dahulu..

walaupun hampir 7 thn lamanya.

aku tidak mampu lagi melupakan kenangan manis kita bersama.

berat hati aku ini utk mengatakan selamat tinggal..

setelah dia menaiki kenderaan utk pulang..

aku hanya mampu melihat dia pergi

lalu menitis air mataku..

aku rasa tk menentu semasa perjalanan pulang,

aku hanya mampu menahan air mata..

pada malam itu, sudah tentu aku terfikir

mengapa aku membuat keputusan tidak mahu bertemu dgnnya lagi?

haizzz...

tidak dpt menahan kesedihan pada mlm itu..

hingga terbawa di mana aku berada.

setiap kali aku keseorgan,

aku akan mengimbas kembali apa yang terjadi..

tidak tahu bagaimana harus aku luahkan perasaan ini..

aku tidak tahu akan terus hidup begini..

MENGAPA?

mmg aku menyesal..

berilah aku satu peluang..

2011-10-12T08:46:00.002+08:00

six years has passed..
but my heart..damn!
nobody would really understand..

ive been waitin..but no,
i must learn that doesnt mean i wait
for you for that period of time
i will get you.

i know..
i understand that you are gettin more irritatted
rest assure..
i will try my very best to end this..

2011-03-03T15:02:00.002+08:00

march march march..

2005..now its 2011..

6 years has past.

but for me, its like the incident just happened

6 minutes ago..

ive been thinkin,

shed tears.

staring into spaces.

well what can i do...

the same old sayin..life gotta move on.

whatever shit.

i tried my best...

2011-01-31T22:15:00.001+08:00

renewed my insurance

road tax,

parking season..

haizz..

thank god im able to pay all that.

guess what.

i bought nerf gun.

gettin ready to play with my friends.

cheers!

2011-01-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i post here

well im busy with life.

and some dickheads wanna ruin my life.

wtf?

hmm, im just pissed off sometimes with someone

damn!

2010-12-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

2010 about to end

2011...coming soon,

3 resolution for the upcoming year.

i need to achieve those.

come what may.

i will put aside all the G's.

and just stay focus.

finally,

i wont be bother ppl tryin to find trouble

as im so busy.

CHEERS!

2010-12-09T10:00:00.002+08:00

its been a long time.

well busy with some stuffs.

have to submit according to the deadline.

by the time i think im gonna be 'dead'.

so, for some people just dont believe that im busy with something.

and im gonna say that's your problem if you not goin to believe me or not.

i dont even force you.

for instance, so many incidents happened last few weeks.

keep calm,

think positively.

but you, keep on sayin negative thing

that pissed me off.

only that i just dont wanna show it to you guys.

fcukin retarded or what..

for now.

thanks.

2010-11-15T19:18:00.001+08:00

i really sick and tired of this game...

its really hurtin someone.

maybe i should just dream about it.

and concentrate on other things.

haizzzz....

thank you.

2010-11-07T21:12:00.002+08:00

maybe its just a mistake for me to come back..

damn, i only hurt myself more.

wtf am i doin here?

shouldnt have follow the script.

shit on me.

im sorry...

i try..

2010-11-07T12:29:00.002+08:00

ok i will try my best to forget you..

no matter what i do.

you still stick to your decision.

i know where i stand.

2010-11-02T20:03:00.002+08:00

its just maybe...

maybe i should just forget about this.

maybe i shouldnt have create a facebook account.

maybe i shouldnt put a high hope.

maybe i should just end this here.

maybe i should stop tryin.

maybe this is all a dream.

and maybe you should just hate me.

its a turned off.

i read that msg.

really made me a **^&^&*%^$

i wont disturb you anymore. perhaps.

if only my mind is like a computer,

i should just delete all the data.

but in this situation,

i cant.

for now no words can describe my feelings.

2010-11-01T20:32:00.002+08:00

the end of my tragedi oktober.

unfortunately, im at my wits end.

i just dont know how to describe my feelings.

maybe just that youre changed.

and blame it on me.

when theres a time im alone,

i just keep thinkin about that incident.

i dont know...im not like this.

suddenly from a happy mode to a emotional mode.

thats fast.

please dont leave me ....again.

time?

how much time?

5 years for me its already too long..

wayyyy toooo lonnnngggg...

i dont wanna any 5 years again.

its really hurt.

when you left..

i knew i made a huge mistake.

i realised you the one i love most.

i didnt treasure you at that point of time.

i tried to forget you.

try to get into a relationship

but i cant.

why?

i just found the anwer.

ITS YOU.

now i really cant focus.

2010-10-31T11:22:00.002+08:00

5 years seems like 5 months?

why is it happening now?

i try my very best to win you.as you know me.

yesterday seems like a happy and sad night for me.

met my old friends...

we laughed.

thats cool.

and thats part of me.

soon after that.

i let out my feelings

i cried.

thats part of me too.

sadly, i cried for the time when im drivin.

plus, i was listenin to d'bagindas CINTA.

all of a sudden i cried thinkin about the past.

god....this is killin me for the past few weeks.

for how long?

i cant take it.

i sat at one place to release my tensions.

the place where really i can speed.....

it was effective...

but yesterday...seems lik 50 50.

now i know why i do not have any such feelings towards other girls..

it is...cause..i LOVE you.

cheers.

2010-10-29T18:54:00.003+08:00

before i start my post,

i would like to say if u dont intend to read

then just dont bother.

lastly, this may contain explicit words and unusual feelings.

thank you...

well, it all started on 2002.

and was ended on 2005.

it was 3 years together.

now,its 2010.

about 5 years we never meet each other...

suddenly we met on the network,

and i keep reminiscin about what happened.

even though it happened last 5 years, but

its still fresh in my mind.

at some point i cant control my feelings.

tears rollin down my cheek.

precisely, i really regret what ive said.

that was...a break up.

a stupid decision i have made in my life.

and i dont even know what im thinkin at that point of time

so fcucked up!

if i can turn back the time,

surely i will take that line away.

i know....

no matter how hard i cry.

you will still not come back.

yes. i will try to accept what happen now.

like you said, that was in the past.

unfortunately, i cant.

you left a big impact in my life.

thus, till now im still regret what happened.

never i realise, its already 5 years?

ouh my..thats long. anything can happen in this 5 years.

even world cup every 4 years.

its ok if you dont believe it.

i know its hard.

on top of that.

i still love you the way i love you on 28th august 2004.

i just want you to know that.

hmm...this totally a tragedi oktober.

thanks Awie for singin that.

in addition, i would to thank ......... for spending

3 years with me.

it could be longer if not with my stupidity and immature decision

i have made.

lastly, thanks for meetin me on 28th oktober

haizz...why must it be 28th?

i really cant hold back my tears.

it could be worst..but i just tried to control it.

certainly that picture i will keep it.

keep it in my heart.

hmm...no matter how hard i try to forget you.

this memory will still stick in my mind.

well i cant erase it easily.

not easy as erasing it on the computer.

and its fcking hard,

i still remember.

like i tell you, one way is when i lost my memory.

that particular time i will forget it all...

for now..i dont know what to say..

i will try to keep on a cheerful face.

if not i just act it.

and thanks for listening...

also being my listening ears...

hope to see you again.

Cheers.

2010-10-28T02:50:00.000+08:00

a totally tragedi oktober....

ouh god.

this is bad.

real bad.

come on november.

2010-10-13T11:50:00.001+08:00

hi,

its been a long time since i update my blog..LOL!

so,

will be sayin a short goodbye to my bike...

hmmm...

and will be planning for a second trip to PHUKET!

2010-09-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

its been a long time...

haha..

well i gotta say.

i hate someone touchin my hair.

no respect!..

thats all..

no hard feeling..

well...

someone got a mouth to say anitin they desire...

and u know what.

i dont give a shit about it.

i dont give a damn u married attached or whatever bullshit

status u got..

i didnt promise u anitin..

its u brought this whole thing upon urself...

and please dont blame me.lol!!!...

ok its really sickenin thinkin of you!!..

please fuck offf....

2010-09-08T23:43:00.001+08:00

yaw..

im done paintin..

shit im exhausted..

well...

thats ur choice..

cheers everybody.

2010-09-06T14:37:00.003+08:00

hi everybody...

its been a long time since i update my blog..

yeah.im busy.no time for all this shit.

...so whats happenin?

last sat was awesome..damn!!

firstly,in the morning i drive that pick up.,.its been a long time

since i drive that vehicle.

secondly, i blood driver ask me to drive the double decker bus

when i start to talk about class 4 and class 5 license.

so he ask me to sit and drive..LOL!!

awesome man!..

haha

lastly, i drive back home using dad's car..

hahaha..

i will be back later on..

kinda busy nowadays..

have to settle my life right now.

bye everyone..

2010-08-11T01:39:00.002+08:00

well,

have to decide now whether im goin to sell my yellow bike.

or NOT?

as i know this is my first bike...

where i transform it to become what it is today.

it is so hard for me to let go. meanin to sell it to anyone dumbass outside there.

from 21112007,till today..this moment...

nvr had an accident,

cuz firstly i know...

its gonna cost me a %%$#@* bomb if my bike drop.

make myself look like an idiot,

and make my family cry for me.

thats really bad.

therefore, i ride carefully not like some assholes

ridin like a first time ridin a %##*( bike.

haizzzz...

i dont know what to do.

and i will be back to upload my pix...

from old to the current.

cuz now i gt no mood!!!!

2010-08-07T22:35:00.003+08:00

wow..

i would today is a bad day for me?

well startin it was great..duhhh!!

firstly went to the first corner...

then i think

watta hell is happenin to my bike

damn,

at the red light

and to my horriffic moment.hahaha

my tyre punctured.

ouh damn,luckily i realised it early.

then...i can even pump air in it.

watta hell dude.

so,i just press the flat tyre button.lol

ouh yeah.its fine.

while at work,

everythin is ok.

haha.i mean OK.

just wastin my time..haha.lol

u know what i mean.

and the second part of the bad shit is...

the f*&^%^%%% stoopid blind driver cant even see me..

where i nearly being hit of the side of the bus..

also the vehicle behind me nvr hit me..

ah shit i keep my cool.

no probs.

lastly in the addittion to the bad day is..

i long nail stucked at my rear tyre.

there goes my money again..

and i really hope nothin bad happens.argghhh pleassssse.

how do i feel?

like a nail stucked underneath my heart..omg.!!

so tonight i go no mood to wipe my bike ass.

2010-08-06T01:04:00.002+08:00

i dont know why..

i keep on reminiscin.

i dreamed of someone i really love.

dushhhh!!!!

what happened.

i taught it was real..

unfortunately it was only a dream.

dont knw why i keep on thinkin of her..

it was march 2005..

that sentence...ouh goshh!

i only i could take it back those lines...

the most regretful day of my life.

i felt so miserable..

awful..

devastated...

i have yet to know where she is right now.

so...

its been 5 years..

damn...

2010-08-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

review of what happened last week...

so fri sat sun..

football all the way...

fri football at fico.

wow..it was fun.met my old frens.

and still my team lost only one game.and won all till the end.

how bout that?

and still i can regain my touch.

the next day saturday..

match against my friends team.

held at yishun.haha.

near to my house.yet im the last to arrived.lol

guess what,my team won..4 goals to 2.

damn that two goals i let it in.

first goals i accidentally slipped and fell down.damn.

second goal..argh normal goal.nothing to cheer about.

and i assist the third goal for my team.take that sucka!

lastly om sunday.

rainy day,luckily we played it indoor at east coast park.

so far i didnt play as goalkeeper,

i play as forward.hahaha

i scored a few goals.top scorer.lol

phew.the most remembered will be...

the one i lob thru the keeper.woohoo..

and now my left leg and hand feel terrible.

i cant even change my gear up when abt to go home.

omg.

now swellin all over...

take care all..

rmbr,puasa kasi penuh.

baru ckp pasal hari raya.

lol

2010-07-25T11:51:00.001+08:00

i really hate those liars...

manis dgn kata2..

ok.

thanx,pissed off

2010-07-23T19:43:00.003+08:00

finally ive done uploadin my pix.

here is the link...lol

Bandung Indonesia

2010-07-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

had fun just now at JB..

i saw this harley kinda look..

but actually...JAGUH..lol

you clueless about JAGUH,search uh.

then i head to my house in jb..at about 3am..

OMG..freakin dark.

and im freakin scared.lol

woke up at 1000 malaysia time.aha.

wash my dirty yellow bike..

unfortunately,when im abt to reach the halfway point..

it rainnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there goes my hard work.

damn.

and now at home.

....

why everybody keep on callin me when im overseas?darn

2010-07-17T14:44:00.001+08:00

wow...

today's rain been a good one.

i slept soundly..?lol

still no time to upload my pix..

next time perharps.

2010-07-12T23:16:00.002+08:00

just came back from a 5 day trip to bandung indonesia.

it was totally awesome.

i really shop till im about to drop.lol

spend quite alot over there.

hmmpphhh.

argh.damn tired right now,

maybe some other time i will share bt the trip..

and the few hundreds pix taken by ME.lol..

see yahhh

2010-07-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

evenin people..

2nd day of bandung..

omg..quite a hectic day,

sight seein...

shoppin..

alot of pix taken..also some videos..

ok signin out..will be back tmrw..

now goin to relax and eat supper..

haha..and i think im gonna be fat at the end of this 5 day trip..damn

2010-07-08T21:58:00.002+08:00

ok now...at bandung..omg..

everywhere heavy traffic..and the weather quite cold here.

unfortunately i frgt to bring my slipper and my specs.

so pissed off with myself.haha..

gonna wake up tmrw early in the mornin..

goodnite guys

2010-07-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

4 days to go to bandung...

woohooo...

2010-06-12T01:12:00.002+08:00

well, someone out there think they are hot,

but in reality... they are Not..

then some ppl keep on repeatin,"you're so irritattin."

in my point of view,

the person who said that actually the most irritattin one.

think of it people,

i hate to argue when i already pissed off.

who said i got crush on that girl...this girl...

when actually i feel like crushin 'em.

2010-06-08T15:32:00.001+08:00

aiyahh....

turnin twenty two soon..ouh damn.

my unlucky number..

BANDUNG, INDONESIA..

here i come.aha

2010-06-04T22:07:00.001+08:00

its gettin older everyday......

girls girls girls..

always share the same line..

"kan ada banyak pompan lagi..."

sick and tired of this line..

2010-06-01T00:36:00.002+08:00

i just met with 'near death situation'

the feeling.....it was terrible.damn

at that point of time,

all the love ones appear in my mind..

do not wish to meet that kinda situation.

arrghh damn that driver....

2010-01-03T14:15:00.000+08:00

new year's race was great......!!!

surely there will be a next time..

2009-12-29T17:13:00.001+08:00

came back from malacca last week..

then off to thailand next 2 week..

maybe before that off to batam.hahaha

2009-12-10T18:27:00.003+08:00

well someone tryin to do somethin bad towards me.

yesterday i was otw to somewhere during nite time..

someone tryin to steal my rear brake caliper?

omg..gimmee a break ok.

i was ridin approximately 90km/h.

all of a sudden i heard a huge knock.

i thought it was my side stand.

and to my horrifyin moment

my brake caliper hangin for 'life'

shit.i couldnt imagine if that thing

would have stuck between my wheels.

and why do ppl still have hatred in their heart.

taubat la.

2009-11-21T18:36:00.002+08:00

my two years anniversary with tun zahidah mariana

actually known as elizabeth.

how time flies.....

im feelin rather down.

i just met a girl.

ive got a crush on her.

but.......

2009-11-13T16:09:00.002+08:00

if you know im irritatin

then no need to talk to me.

i also not interested in talkin to u.

so dont waste your time.

thank you.

2009-10-27T17:12:00.002+08:00

SEPANG WAS GREAT.........

AND THE GIRLS ARE HOT.HAHAHA

2009-10-13T19:44:00.002+08:00

minggu lalu..

ada sekumpulan bapok suruh ambil gambar mereka..

lalu saya pun ambilkanlah..

setelah itu..

ada bapok hot uh..

nak ambil gambar dgn saya,

da tu tkpe..dia tau nama saya..aiyoo.

bkn main cpt dia nmpk name tag saya.

sejurus saya di sebelah bapok hot tu.

dia pun grab saya dan geselkan dia punya tu..haha kat saya.

dan dia juga peluk saya macam tknk kasi lepas..omg..

pada beberapa hari yang lalu..

adalah mamat kedi ni dgn dia punya guy..kirakan mcm GAY la gitu.

senyum pada saya..renung2,pandang2..

da tu tkpe.jmpe lagi di lampu isyarat..

tgk lagi..omg..

apa nak jadi ni.

2009-09-19T11:26:00.002+08:00

bulan ramadan akan meninggalkan kita.

sungguh pilu rasanya.

namun bagi segelintir manusia yg tk menikmati bulan ini,

akan merasa gembira, kerana mereka akan menyambut

syawal.

yang hairannya mereka ini tidak puasa pun.

begitu tidak tahu malu.

memang tidak boleh kita elakkan utk tidak melihat mereka ini

daripada makan minum atau buat perkara

terkeji di bulan ramadan ini.

malah mereka merasa bangga.

kerana manusia lain sedang puasa mereka tidak.

sungguh bodoh da tidak logik pun fikiran manusia seperti ini.

misalnya,

sewaktu saya hendak ke kerja,

banyak sangat maksiat yang saya lihat di siang hari ini,

hampir tembel dan beesole mata saya!

iaitu, mat2 dan minah2 duduk di kolong blok hisap

rokok, dan hisap benda lain.

lalu di kedai kopi,

ternampak pakcik dan rakan2 bermain carrom

sambil minum kopi dan makan roti kaya.

hampir tiba di kerja,

satu keluarga bapa, mak, anak perempuan

tidak puasa.

tidak tahulah mak dan anak perempuannya itu datang bulan

ke apa.

yang bapa datang matahari? langit? awan? bintang?

atau bukan jantan.

kalau hendak makan pun pergilah mana2 tidak ada orang.

itu pun tak boleh fikir?

nanti sudah jatuh sakit,

sakit kaki, badan, kepala, buah atau segala tubuh,

barulah hendak taubat.

rasa menyesal. dan mereka berkata,

"kalaulah aku tak sakit, aku da puasa dulu."

tak payah. gi mampos sudah. gi bookin batu nisan.

malam semalam, saya menerima duit raya!

dari superior saya.

terima kasih.

dan akhir sekali,

kepada sesiapa yang saya ada membuat silap,

ampunilah salah siap saya.

dan sesiapa yang ada salah silap pada saya,

sudah saya maafkan salah silap yang telah

dilakukan dan yang belum dilakukan.

sekian.

wasalam

2009-09-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

after a week being seperated with my darling

Tun Zahidah Mariana.

i really miss her so badly.

s0 tmrw is the day she will be back from 'hospital'

gonna take a ride!

sejak baru2 ni..

ramai sgt manusia yg saya kenali telah saya terserempak dan terlihat.

termasuk mantan kekasih saya..

berdegup jantung bagaikan

keretapi tanah melayu lajunya.

hingga terfikir2 atas kejadian itu.

saya tertanya2..mengapa kenapa

saya bertemu dgn semua manusia2 ini dgn masa yg singkat?

hingga termimpi2..tidak boleh lelapkan mata.

hanya memikirkan perkara ini.

mungkin pada sesiapa yang melihat wajah saya ini.

mereka akan membuat anggapan sendiri bahawa saya ini sombong,

bengis, jahat dan apa2 yang tak baik.

sebenarnya tidak, janganlah membuat anggapan seperti itu.

saya amat menyayangi kamu semua.

hanya saya tidak dapat menunjukkannya.

jikalau saya tunjukkannya,kamu pula akan menuduh saya

ini playboy,buaya darat,bapak ayam..haha

gay..mcm2 la.

pergi la taubat ok.

jgn buat jht lagi.tk penat ke asek jadi jht.

take care all.

2009-09-02T19:29:00.002+08:00

habit terkini saya...

mmg la memakukan dan membuang masa.

iaitu.................

pada suatu malam sedang saya menuju ke

lif sambil mendgr lagu.

dgn asyiknya,saya pun masuk ke dalam

sambil bernyanyi2..

ala mlm2 siapa nak naik lif,

sedang menyanyi dgn penuh perasan, saya terlupa

hendak menekan butang ke tingkat

yang saya ingin menuju. dan lalu ke

tingkat teratas, ....

tiba2....................muncul satu apek kat dpn muka!

adoiii...terkejut saya dibuat nya, nasib seluar tak basah.

apek itu pun masuk ke dlm lif dgn melihat saya begitu hairan,

alamak..saya pun tekan butang lif utk ke tingkat yg lain..

yg kedua pula,

apabila hendak pergi waktu rehat di tmpt kerja.

saya pun begitu gembira, lalu menyanyi2 dengan hati

yg senang,

kerana menunggu lif mmg lembab..

lif pun tiba dan saya pun sedang menyanyi sambil

melangkah kaki masuk tanpa saya sedari saya tidak menekan butang

utk ke 'basement one',

malah ia pergi ke tingkat 16..

aiyoo,baik2 nak cpt jadi lmbt....

dua hari lps, sedang saya hendak ke keretapi,

tiba2 ada satu insan menepuk saya dari blkg,

dan dia berkata,

"hi sir, (*(&*&^&%%% i think you gt the height

of a model that im searchin right now,

would like to tell me your height.

i replied,"1.$$"

he then said,"ok,i would like to offer you to become a model at our company

XXX, as a freelance for some brand like XXX.

my name is sky, can i have ur name and ur contact number,

i said,"my name is ahmad (CLOUD), my contact is 013-983-6456454.

then he gave me his namecard.

and i was daydream when he was talkin,

i only concentrate when he ask me sum quest

and when he is SKY!.

take care everyone,

dont be ^%%$#@$

2009-08-22T21:06:00.001+08:00

she is such a big nuisance.

please shut up.

2009-08-15T19:20:00.002+08:00

im in total

CRISIS

2009-08-14T19:56:00.002+08:00

went for my first medical check up,

at first

the auntie told me to check my urine..

haha..

arghh..dun feel to elaborate more on that,

soon after i finish that,

i proceed in to the doctor's room

..

lie down on a bed...

lift up my shirt..

and she said..wah u a fan of spongebob,

nice belt..and boxer,

and i was thinkin,

how come she can see my boxer....?

aha..

so the doctor strted talkin..

about her passed experience..and so on..

.she said,u gt a low BP,

do u exercise regurlaly?

i replied in confident manner,

YES!! of course..

hah..

actually,....aah u know the answer..

and went for my x ray,....

luckily not weird thing found..

suddenly

one fine after another..

aiyahhh bad luck la..

2009-08-12T02:02:00.003+08:00

just came back from JB,

shit,watta bad day im havin..

adoii...

day time gt stopped by TP singapore,

night time gt stopped by JB TP,

alamak..

wanted sgt ke aku ni..

the story .....

otw back from "shop"

ride so slow...

just changed my pipe..so kinda feel down.hah

there was this group of mat2..

adakah patut motor masuk lane kereta?

nenek aku pun tau lagi pandai sak..

then..they stop...soon after they saw

bunch of TP down there..

one of them U turn..haha..

and the rest beat the traffic..

while waitin for the light to turn green,

there was this kapcai...

dlm hati aku..pakcik mane sak sesat ni..pakai safety vest

naik kapcai..

he said..," aku tk suke plate number kau..aku nak kau tukar mcm

dorg..aku mmg tk minat...daah jalan..

and i was...sape seh kau?

ya ala, baru aku ingt,kau TP rupanya

da la tk dpt mat2 td..aku pun jadi kau nk lpskan geram?

^&*^%$(

2009-08-11T19:54:00.004+08:00

this is my base on my first time experience...

first story...

10th august 2009,

i was at my jb house...relaxin...sleepin

eatin,*&(^&^..

then suddenly my uncle..

like so eager askin me out..hah

to watch DRIFT...

and i was like half naked..

i hurriedly rushed to the car while tryin to wear my shirt..

after we reached the location..

DAMN!!..it was packed with mod cars...

and there was some bunch of cops..

but they were doing nothing..haha

so,after the host announced that in a few seconds

that the drift will start..

unfrotunately i frgt my dem phone..shit..

then pusat bandaraya tak tau nama siapa..

join in the fun,he was beside the drifter..

soon after that..the car dirfttttttttttttttt.....wohoo

*&*&*^ loud noise!!..

and second drifter was a girl..

but she was not brave enuf to do like the first drifter..

luckily she hot!...

lastly..the pusat bandaraya tak tau nama siapa

was shackin his legs...scared.!!!

and luckily his pants was not wet....

second story...

i was ridin my bike..on the way to work..

i was at some expressway..

talkin to myself after "some action"

i was sayin to myself,"wahh thrillin uh..."

soon after that i was looked to the right...

i saw a car..POLICE CAR>>>Traffice Police..

then i was..."ouh kereta police.."

then i look again.."ouh &*^*&^ TP!!!"

i was thinkin like wanna runaway..or just pull over..

thrilling kan..

but with my open heart i stop...

both officers came out..

police," IC and license and...( i frgt watta hell he said..)"

me," hmm..(i give my IC,license, road tax and insurance..)"

police," wheres ur insurance?"

me," there lah...(dlm hati..bengap sak..)

police," unfold ur insurance..

....

.....

police," pls strt ur bike"

me," (strt the bike..then the pipe sound goin insane!!)"

police," (rev my engine..) your pipe so noisy.

me," ouh that time i bought it was like this.."

police, "huh,what??"

me," (pekak kape sak kau..lucky he never say anythin bout the smoke..)

police," your plate number (front) not approve...(chrome type)

me," ouh that time i change...hmm..ahhhh..(donoe what to bedek..haha)

police," your rear plate number also not approve (chrome)

me, "that time the plate number fell down..then i changed..and then...."

police, "you bikers uh, ask around if wanna buy bike, just anyhow buy..

me, "ouh ok..(hah, other ppl ask me where to buy that chrome plate number..)"

police, " i tell you what, you must follow me to base, and then im going to impound

your bike till next wednesday..

me, "huh,ahh im going to work...

police," what is that goin to do with me? i also doing my job..

me," officer,this is my first time..give chance la."

police," yah,every rider say that their first time,then they will chance

but when i see them again still the same.."

me," (siak laa dia ni,uat aku geram je..) yah..yah..."

police," (going to the car boot, take somethin..)

police," 70 percent is the approve visor..."

me," (dont understand what he is sayin).."

police," pls take your helmet.."

me," (aku nye blurrr aku gi pakai helmet..ahah)

police," no..dont wear..(take the visor and verify it..)"

police," see..ur visor 20 percent only.."

me." (ahh shit)"

police," i tell you what, i give u till 15th august, by hook or by crook,

i send my man to ur workplace or your house,i dont care. if u didnt

change ur plate number and pipe, i will take action.."

me," (haha), ok no problem.."

police," but i will charge u on the visor 5o dollars and..12 points..

me," ok...huh?......12 points?"

police," alrite, please ride safe.."

me," (wah sayang jg dia kat aku..)ok thank you sir.."

me," (strt bike,and move off, and this TP behind me..so

ride verrrryyy slow leii...suddenly the TP overtake..,

i also lane change and.....speeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddddddd...

haha)

ah shit..watta day..

2009-08-07T17:26:00.001+08:00

why today everyone wanna run me down?

damn!.

at last dia benci aku..

bukannya senang nak kasi org benci aku.hahahha

2009-07-31T15:14:00.002+08:00

mr farouk approached me

it was because of my plate number

that attracts him to talk to me...

and....talk....talk....

there was a time he offered me

rokok gulung..hah

i declined..nahh im not smokin..

so he replied in a shockin manner..

wahh gua salute lu uh braderrrrrr...

thats all..

take care all....

2009-07-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

good day today...

wash my bike using high pressure..

hah..for free sumore...

and the best thing is

at last i have my paddle pop...

lastly, i gt the chance to watch wrestling...

haiyahh long time nvr watch..

2009-07-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

both my parents are away..

jaadii...

sayalah yang mengemas bilik,

ruang tamu,dapur, tandas..dan lain2 lagi.

saya juga yang memasak,

membeli barang2 keperluan

jahit langsir,

dan banyak lagi.

...

im really overjoyed over what happened..

all the girls i admired..

now are attached..haha..

gettin engaged or married..

the reason,

so that all the girls will not have to

'suffer' when they are with me..

in a way that they say im...

"kerek"? "sombong"? "irratatin"? "annoyin"?

in the first place, knp la nk layan jikalau tahu

diri saya ini begini?

and, baru kau tau aku

"kerek"? "sombong"? "irratatin"? "annoyin"?

hahaha..

and jikalau aku berdiam diri,

nnti berkata,"kenapa la kau diam?"

bila aku berkata...,"heyy diam la, kau irritatin

nak mampos..!!"

apa maksud ni?

dan jgn lah bersungguh2 kata

anda sungguh kenal sama saya..

kerana pada zahirnya

anda tipu diri anda sendiri,

tidak kenal pun pada diri saya..

Terima kasih...

2009-07-23T15:38:00.000+08:00

what a day..

early in the mornin..

i was half awake,

duh,i accidentally swallowed

LISTERINE!!!..haha

dem..

i cant explain how i feel..

2009-07-21T21:13:00.002+08:00

i really dont know why you keep on runnin

your mouth,

as you know your mouth stinks.

dont go around tellin people

im ^%^%$ jealous..

ouh please..gimee a damn break girl.

i really dont have much time to entertain all

this shit..its killin me!

y'all givin me headache.

lalalalala

2009-06-15T00:46:00.002+08:00

first of all

i would like to thank

for those who are so kind hearted

to wish me....

i appreciate it alot...

and thanks to my family also...

ouh yah..semakin hari semakin tua....

take care all..

2009-06-04T13:03:00.002+08:00

hi

in another few weeks,im goin 21.

duhh....gettin older.

well, ive been busy nowadays.

no time at all to post,

if i gt time..totally im lazy to do so.

its only a matter of time when i will get caught

by 'mayat naik mtr'...

few occassions i escaped from them,

i was speedin...where i nvr notice

that person standin at the side.

and theres more...cant explain here.,hah

till here then..see u all,

take care...muacks...

2009-04-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

NSSL

Lee Hsien Loong Tournament,

wow,they sent me a letter,

how delighted i am.

haha...

i thought they 'forget' bout me.

i love that referree who keep on scoldin me..

threatened to gimee a yellow kard,

cuz of a stoopid reason ive made.

that was...kick the ball above the player.

not the first time,but i kept on doin that 3 times.hah

and rewarded the oppositon a penalty,

but dem,all three the nvr score.

that means,i saved uh..all three.

soo im gonna return this year withh 100 percent confindent.hah

dats all.

2009-04-16T19:42:00.002+08:00

how happy i am

i stepped out from my house

ahpek smiled at me.

under the void deck,

nyonya i nvr see before also smile at me.

seems like everythin was good enough for me.

the ahpek dulpicatin my keys also laughed at me even though it was not funny at all.

i msgd someone that i have not msg her for a long time.

she said she misses me,but only a bit.

at least she misses me.

unfortunately,

shit............

my precious jacket i left inside the taxi

after a long chat with the driver.

dem..

i felt like cryin.

i cant sleep, even though i was so tired that night.

i kept on callin the cab hotline,

but.....leceh laaa nk cerita.

i dont have any mood to do anythin.

you must be thinkin that im krazee or retarded

feelin down cuz of a jacket.

thats make you dont understand me.

usually i wear it when im goin jb,

feelin rempit.haha

but that night, wearin nutin but my long sleeve.

my mechanic ask me to change this change that,

i just say "tukar je laaaaa...ape yg patut..."

dem..

but sleepin and restin at my jb house

ease my mind a bit.......

where i spend the night with my male fren.

yahh..we are gay.haha.

at least he make me laugh,where usually i make him laugh till dawn.

lastly,tmrw havin fun.

dats all..

2009-04-03T16:48:00.002+08:00

first of all,

i would like to thank

mamak ridin mtr kapcai,ah beng drivin hyundai matrix,apek drivin taxi.

if they didnt chase me....

i think...

i'll be landing myself to my own grave,or RAWATAN INSENTIF....

apakah yang ada di dalam kepala otak aku ini.

dgn secara tiba2 side stand aku ke bwh.

dtglah mamak kapcai ni...apa laahh dia tunjuk aku..aku pun tk faham.

ah beng tu pulak tiba2 je break sepenuhnya kat sebelah kiri,

apek taxi mcm memandu kereta F1 dari kanan ke kiri...

dia tunjuk2...aiyoo..aku ada pusing blkg tgk ada "sesiapa" di blkg..hah

rupa2nya side stand..adooi..

klw lahh jatuh,tk sempat aku nk ucapkan terima kasih kepada semua

manusia yg mengenali saya,dan juga saya amat mencintai mereka.

haha..

soo,beberapa minggu yang lalu,

saya,keluarga dan saudara mara

ke karaoke..

phew..

first song aku da nyanyi..power..lagu Airmata Di Persandinganmu.

hah.

lagu2 yang aku feelin sendiri ialah,

Meraung...suara terus sengauuuuuuuuu

Jangan Pernah Berubah...wow...mendalam sgt aku nyanyi lagu ni,

Goyang Inul,woohoo..gerek aku gelek...

dan byk lagi laa lagu2 yang aku feelin sorg2..

2009-03-17T00:19:00.003+08:00

hi

it has been one thousand and ninety five days

since i quit smokin..haha

for all smokers,please try to quit smokin,

it only waste your money.

rather then u spend on tobacco

its better for you to donate that money to charity

or somethin useful and benefits others.

for those smokers wannabe,please ehh dont ever

have the intention to try.

for those underage smokers.haha

please ehh quit,dont try to make yourself look cool.

ure not cool even if ure not smokin.hah.

so please ehh,last warning,

i dont want to see anymore smoke comin out

from ur mouth people.

or that awFOOL smell from you people.

i dont know if that smell comin from your armpit or what,.haha.

last saturday,

i saw one old man,

age about 80 plussss..

demm he still smokin..

tk mati2..

2009-02-28T12:16:00.003+08:00

hi,

now..

how i really piss off with this

makcik and pakcik parking..

aiyoo..

you go nutin to do is it?

issue fines..

stoopid..

you know u wastin too much paper.hah

i got fine tickets for nutin..really

all thanks to u pakcik parking.

da la aku letak kupon parking,

kalau aku letak kupon amal tu lain cerita la..

lagipun..

tkde ke cita2 nk taubat..

asek saman org je.

cuba org saman kau.mcm ne?

2009-02-26T14:15:00.002+08:00

it's the worst..

that day on thurs..

february 19th 2009

malam jumaatttt............JENNGGGGGGGGGGGG!

i was ridin' somewhere around spore..

it was one am spore time..

i didnt think of anythin.

tiba2..bila saya sedang asyik menyanyi

sambil menunggang motorsikal

saya terbau harummmmm...

semakin hampir saya kehadapan,

semakin harrumm baunya..

saya pun berhenti menyanyi untuk seketika waktu,

apabila berhenti di lampu isyarat,

saya perhatikan ada sebuah lori

besar..dari negara asing,

mcm mana saya tahu?tgk laa nombor plate.

saya hairan,apa hal malam2 buta ada lori kat sini,

pulak tu,tkde bunyi langsung.

saya pun sambung laa nyanyian saya.

lampu bertukar menjadi hijau.

saya pun bergerak khas..

setelah beberapa saat,

motorsikal saya berat dan tersenget ke kiri,

aduhh..saya pun lihat di cermin,

tiada apa2..kerana cermin saya tk dpt berfungsi pun.haha

saya pun menoleh ke arah belakang...

JENGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!

nasib tidak ada sesiapa di belakang,

...tiba2 sahaja badan saya sejuk..

entahlah kenapa..

ingatkan nak kol misteri jam 12..

tk pe laaaaaaaa...

tammatt,,

2009-01-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

salam sejahtera

saya memang kecewa.

sangat kecewa.

namun begitu saya tidak berputus asa.

banyak yang berlaku kepada diri saya ini.

tetapi saya tetap tidak serik dgn apa yang terjadi.

mengapa?

hingga sekarang saya belum lagi mempunyai jawapan yang kukuh.

saya pun tidak tahu mengapa saya berbuat demikian.

seakan saya memaksa diri saya?

..........

apa yang saya bebualkan adalah seseorang yang istimewa dalam hidup saya

sejak umur saya sembilan belas tahun.

agak2 dua thn lps.

tk silap thn dua ribu tujuh.

memang paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanjannnnnnnnnnnnnggg kisahnya..

memang dia tidak menerima cinta saya ini.

mungkin dia tidak tahu yang saya serious.

atau mungkin dia mempunyai sebab2 yang lain.

saya tidak berputus asa..

walaupun sudah agak lama..

tambahan pula,saya tidak berpaling hati dari hatinya.

hingga kini,

dua ribu sembilan,

di mana umur saya dua puluh satu.

saya hanya fikir,dia sengaja membuat saya marah,geram,bingit

semata2 utk saya menjauhkan diri darinya.

tetapi tidak.

malahan membuat saya lebih dekat.

walaupun menerima banyak tomahan dan sebagainya.

hati saya ini tetap padanya.

mengapa kenapa bagaimana?

ini terjadi kepada diri saya.

pernah seketika hendak melupakan dirinya,

tetapi saya tidak mampu,

akhirnya jatuh sakit.

hingga hilang konsentrasi di jalan raya

hingga sikit lagi menyebabkan kemalangan yang dahsyat kepada diri saya ini.

saya amat merindu dirinya,

hingga bergenang airmata,

lalu basah di pipi.

saya tahu apa yang akan saya lakukan tidak akan gerakkan hatinya

utk bertemu dgn saya.

ampunkanlah segala dosa yang telah saya lakukan.

seterusnya,

berterima kasih kepada yang telah

melabelkan saya ini sebagai playboy,pimp,buaya darat,

dan sebagainya.kerana anda semua telah berjaya

menyakini semua insan. buat susah sahaja buat mcm tu.

dan akhir sekali,

tiga kali dalam sebulan,

saya terserempak dgn............

polis trafik.haha.

pertama apabila pulang dari keje,

pakcik misai laa kat tepi road tgk aku.

nasib sempat bukak visor...lps tu cabottt..

kedua,hendak ke keje,

nasib dia tgh saman pemandu lain,

klw tak aku pun kene pasal visor dan asap

yang boleh membunuh nyamuk2...

dan ketiga.

apabila hendak 'illegal parking'..

aku ternmpk,apa hal ni mamat naik skooter

putih topi keledar putih...baru aku sedar dia pun trafik polis.

aku pun stop tepi2,bukak topi keledar,kluakan telefon bimbit

step laa bebual pnjg..lps tu cabott laa.......

sekian.

2009-01-12T16:07:00.002+08:00

how are you people doin?

hope you doin good.

ahh,

tadi,auntie kashier punyalah gatal..

da aksi duit tu kasi je la.

nak pegang tangan aku pulak ni.

ya allah..

haram tu.

da la batal air wudhuk aku.

cis.

bahawa saya disini ingin mengucapkan jutaan terima kasih..

kepada..

ibu yang telah melahirkan saya di muka bumi ini.

bapa yang telah banyak berkorban untuk saya...dan juga membuat ibu melahrikan saya..

haha..

adik-adik yang selalu membuat aku susah.haha.kiddin.

rakan-rakan,teman-teman,sahabat handal

yang banyak membantu saya selama ini dikala aku susah.

temanita,kekasih hati,sayangku,bekas kekasih,skandal dan sebagainya

yang telah memberi saya peluang untuk membuktikan keikhlasan

dan juga cinta sejati saya terhadap kamu semua. tidak lupa merubah jalan

hidup saya.hehe.

juga berterima kasih pada sesiapa yang membenci dan selalu tidak

gemar melihat saya ini..terima kasih kerana membenci saya.

saya harap kamu akan membuat sikap tersebut.

apalah dosa dan salah saya terhadap kamu semua.seandainya

ada sekalipun katakanlah..hah.

dan akhir sekali terima kasih..jaga diri baik-baik.

ouh semalam hari lagi sikit nak ditimpa

kemalangan,kalau tak da arwah.

tammatt.

2008-12-30T01:51:00.002+08:00

hello

hi

hey,

yang utama sekali,

jika anda tidak berminat sila tekan buta key-bored

anda ALT+CTRL+DEL atau ALT F4.

kisah pertama,

ia berlaku tidak begitu lama dahulu,

juga tidak sahaja berlaku.

kisah tentang seseorang gadis yang bukan nama sebenarnya

'siti zubaidah'.

ramai wanita

gadis

perempuan

bapok

pondan

yang saya kenali tidak dilayani semesra

seperti mana saya melayani siti zubaidah.

memang tepat dia memang istimewa di dalam

hidup yang saya tempuhi ini.

namun begitu,kami tidak mempunyai sebarang hubungan.

bukan kekasih hati,bukan bakal tunang,bukan bakal isteri

bukan bakal bini,bukan bakal skandal,semuanya bukan.

hanya teman biasa.sangat biasa.

seperti mana seluruh manusia di dunia yang bernafas

dari hidung iaitu mereka tahu,

bahawa saya ini tidak sedikit pun romantis,

tidak mempunyai gaya,mutu,keunggulan.

tiada rupa dan harta.

apakah lagi memikat seseorang gadis yang menawan

seperti gadis miss universe 1962.

seperti malam-malam yang lain,

ada satu bulan yang menyinari malam,

beratus ribu juta,bintang yang berkelip-kelipan.

pada malam itulah,tidak pernah saya melakukan sesuatu di luar

keberanian saya,memberikan gadis itu

bukan 4 tapi 3 kuntum bunga mawar

merah yang bukan dibuat oleh plastik,tapi yang tulen.

apa?kenapa?mengapa?bagaimana?

jika dipendekkan kisah ini,

saya memang rasa terharu apabila dia menerimanya dengan

senyuman manis.

justeru,setelah beberapa saat,minit,jam,

hari,minggu,bulan.....

menunggu...

entah ke mana dia hilang.

entah dicolek alien,

ditelan dinosaur,

dan sebagainya.

saya harapkan dia bahagia bersama

yang tercinta.

yang tersayang.

hingga hari kiamat.

memang bijak membuat pilihan

untuk tidak bersama lelaki seperti saya ini.

akhir sekali,

walaupun cinta saya ini

tidak sekukuh batu belah batu bertangkup ,

tidak seluas lautan east coast,

tidak semanis gula-gula tarik

tetapi saya gembira.

terima kasih.

kisah kedua pula,

materialistik bitch masih bernyawa.

mereka hanya menghabiskan wang di

dalam dompet.

hanya mempermainkan hati

seperti mana dia bermain dengan barbie doll.

lebih baik saya bayar saman.haha.

officer itu memang kontol.

ubahlah diri sebelum apa-apa berlaku pada hidup ini,

berhenti merokok.

tidak sihat,

merosakkan halkom,

kerongkong,

ginjal,

paru-paru,

limpa,

jantung,

dan agaknya seluruh tubuh anda.

hanya bermain dengan asap,

kalau itu lebih baik main bunga api.

sudah ditimpa kemalangan di atas diri,

pada masa itulah baru sedar.

sampai disini sahaja,

tammmmmat.

2008-12-16T14:30:00.002+08:00

salam sejahtera para pembaca

yang setia,

yang terpaksa,

yang dipaksa,

yang kena paksa,

yang secara senyap-senyap

dan sebagainya.

jutaan terima kasih kepada anda semua.

pastinya saya terlalu sibuk dengan aktiviti seharian saya

pada kebelakangan ini,seperti meluangkan masa bersama

keluarga yang tersayang,tidur lebih dari sepuluh jam,

menyiram tumbuh-tumbuhan di halaman rumah,

menyanyi hingga boleh menangis,menonton opera sabun(soap opera)

hingga tertidur.

dan banyak lagi.

banyak perkara yang terjadi sebelum ini,

sabtu lalu,saya dan keluarga saya,bermain futsal di east coast,

di mana saya sudah sekian lama saya tidak bermain sukan tersebut.

agak-agak dalam 9 bulan,sama seperti ibu yang mengandung.

tetapi itu tidak menghalang saya,'hand of magic' masih kekal.

haha.di mana saya menjadi penjaga gawang pada hari itu.

seperti biasa saya menyelamatkan beberapa ratus ribu gol daripada

dijaringkan oleh para pemain yang tak sangat handal.

lalu saya terdengar satu jeritan 'baiKeeper'.

itulah yang saya nanti-nantikan.terima kasih kepada abang sedara saya.

pendek kan cerita,saya jaringkan satu gol dimana saya impikan

setiap kali seperti bermain game winning eleven.

selepas itu berangkat ke chalet untuk barber queue.

saya yang bakar,saya lahh yang makan.haha.

pada malam itu,kami menyanyi hingga lewat malam,

lagu jiwang sahaja dinyanyikan dari saya.

sebelum saya akhiri,

jikalau anda rasa saya ini seperti irritatin atau annoyin

bagaikan nyamuk yang berterbangan tanpa arah di setiap malam,

janganlah paksa diri anda,kerana nanti kamu akan dilemparkan ke

rumah sakit.

dan lebih baik jangan berkenalan dengan saya.

kerana saya pun tidak mahu berkenalan dengan awak.haha.

kiddin..

sampai disini sahaja..jaga diri baik-baik.

say no to 2009 or die.

im happy with your promises,

but im disappointed whenever you break it.

2008-12-06T08:54:00.002+08:00

JUST came back this mornin'..

should be sleepin,dreamin,bed wettin right now.

but im awake

cuz my 'baby' is back from 'hospital'.

haha.

will be away for 72 hours from now.

wait,suddenly she came back...

so nice,

so sweet,

so lovin....

im lookin forward to see you...

2008-11-21T15:35:00.003+08:00

today,

21112008,

friday,

celebratin' one year anniversay with..

tun zahidah mariana,

actually known as elizabeth.

haha.

one year accident free.

one year tp free.haha

but unlimited numbers of fines.yeahhhha.

recently gt fine regardin'...excessive smoke?

you must be kiddin me old man.

nvm,i can live with that.

aslkan ada duit,ada saman.

kene saman bila ada duit.

at least i killed all the mosquitoes.next time i bring along shieltox.

hehe.

till then..take care of yourself.

am i important to you?

2008-11-12T16:16:00.002+08:00

3 fines i got for nothin.

gimme a fine happily everafter,

nvm,i can live with that.

the most irritatin scene ever today,

this dirty ppl

just show off.

by all means

fine me!

faggot.

and busy with my own thang.

you dont have to insult me if you dont want to be with me.

2008-11-01T20:44:00.006+08:00

my mission yesterday was...

to get my precious helmet at

my home sweet home at johor bahru.

it was terribly hot.

demm.

as usual when i reached jb,

i will be extra extra extra careful..

as u know,there are many holes.

i mean holes at the road..

and nastyy notorious drivers..

unfortunately,it was bad luckkk.

phew..

i cant resist str8 road.haha..

soo i was about to speed at 99km per hour,

and out of now where

this dirty lil van came out of nowhere..

i was breakinnnn like a mad person..duhhh..

few seconds before i met my first accident..yeahhhha..

luckili i gt away..so closed.

however,i safely reached my location..

soo,i relaxed myself,

watchin tv,washin my bike..

wow like no one disturbin me..

dats more i like it..

soon after i done..

took my helmet..and soo mission accomplished.

yeahhhhaa..

what i couldnt take it was..

jam *********

when i thought someone tried to smuggle

drugs in his penis.

luckili no..

and luckili i didnt met the 'cheeky' kustom.wahhhhhhaaaaa.

nvr in my life,

someone..

made me soooo

shocked,

happy,

actuali i dunoe how to put it,

dunoe how i feel..maybe..

anyway..thanx for the video u made..

thanx for the trouble.

and wishin my cousin farewell..

hope to see you soon,

teknologi me beybehhh..

actuali what is happenin.........to me?

2008-10-29T18:27:00.003+08:00

i give you my word

i wont be a bug to you.

neither i will force you.

or whatsoever.

i will not irritate and annoy you.

i will try to be a good person.

even if im good or nice towards you,

u dun even care,u pretend to be blind.

u only see if im in the wrong

and too much of a hassle if im around.

stop callin action,sombong,ngande2,

tk lyn lagi,da berubah,uat hal sendiri..and many more.

stop runnin ur mouth as if u know whats happenin.

i give u my trust,and u misuse it.

i wish y'all a good future and good health.

keep on dumpin

i try to avoid the same thing to happen.

when you still be my angel eyes......maybe...

2008-10-28T14:18:00.002+08:00

it turned out bad for me.

when my right eyes turned red bcause of that kntct lens....again.

where i gt a difficulty openin my eyes.

and my vision blurrrred.

i just dun want to spend another couple of nights at the hospital..again..

so,a veri bad day for me yesterday night...

before going to kei el.

i parked my bike at my johore's crib.

unfortunately,my dad didnt bring the keys

when we returned from kei el..omg.

i was sooooooo frustrated then..haha..

soo i lifted up the gate..luckily no one was watchin us.

hah.

before that,i put my helmet on top of my bike.

then someone just put it inside the house.

ouh the shiiitttest thing man.

soo i decided to buy a new helmet.

seriously like one of mat skudai.

otw to spore.

my number plate fell off.

demm .

and it was jam like hell.

even the kustom asked me,

"bang,plate number mana?"

i answered,"jatuhh laaa tadi.."

he again asked,"kau betul ke tak,?"

so answered,"betul laa.taakkan nak tipu.."

soo i sppeeeeeeeeeeedddd al the way home.

like a mad person.

...

soo at least someone made me smile,

a lil bit..

hmm

he knows

she will make him smile..always..

but then....

she seems busy?

however,he will still wait.

2008-10-23T18:55:00.002+08:00

hello hello

been a busy week.

not enough sleep

cant sleep

and its been rainin lately

so the past two days

play with the rain.

everyday eat alot

since then gained weight alot

really

serioussssss!

meanwhile this sat not in singapore...

goin far far away.

so all of u take care of urself

yeah includin you.

and yesterday been an amazing day includin today.

soo i will be back on monday i guess.

dont miss me..heh

how i wish i got your number...

so at least i can get through you over there.

2008-10-21T18:02:00.002+08:00

lucky-go-happy

i got lucky today and soo im happy.

firstly,never did i realise today is twenty first.

shit,i pick on the wrong date at the parking koupon.

luckily i never gt any fine.

soo unfortunate that many bird shits aall over my seat.

haha.

then washed away by the heavy rain.

tmrw the day i meet someone that i be longin to meet.

hehe.......

had a dream about you that night....

"like an angel eyes..."

2008-10-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

a new begining for me.

take care all of you.

2008-10-08T16:38:00.007+08:00

this post is for someone...

someone i really love,

someone i really care.

before i start,

a song for u,

at least i tried...

since the day we last met,

im not being myself,

its not that i cheated on u,

i realised that im not tellin u the truth,

ouh god.

im so sorrryyy.

when u saw me that day,

i was extremely shocked.

how regret i felt.

i know u dem angry towards me.

i cant do anythin bout it.

just u dun gimme a chance to explain myself.

too many things to endure.

watta hell.

i said all that just because i want to forget bout u,

sht i thought i was ready.

but im not.

duhh.

and my dreams shattered.

where i keep reminiscin,

its hard,

sleepless nights.

swollen eyes.

cant focus.

nahh,i gt no interest in others.

argghh.where this happened the second time.

im not sure u will accept me back.

but im sure u will remember this place.?

that was the 48th boat passed by.

and u the first person to receive a rose from me.

ouh how shy i am to carry it on the train.

where i cant even relax myself,

and my first time ever takin the LRT.

every seconds i was about to reach ur place,

i was soooo nervous,

that i never give someone a rose before.

3 roses?till now i havent tell whats the meanin of it

i hope u will find the answer one day.

upon seein u,i felt soooo relieve.

thank god....

i wouldnt have post this other than u.

and im sorry what i have done towards u,

i didnt mean to do it.

take care

my dear friend.

and lastly this song is dedicated to u.

2008-09-01T22:30:00.003+08:00

so,

everythin' changed.

and there's nutin i can do.

some people say he's soo sensitive,

and soo emotional.

why is dat soo?

maybe there's sumtin he just wanna keep by himself.

even since then,

he changed..

HE is NOT him.

stay tune......

2008-07-31T14:09:00.002+08:00

wow,

it's been awhile.

i've been busy all this days.

...arrgh,its all messed up.

hmm,im just cool with it.

dem,i dunoe what to post.

ok,now i remember

i chngd a couple of songs a year ago.

haha.

now i've done it again..

ive chgd lelaki ini by anuar zain,

to perempuan itu by 'myself'.haha

i just chngd the lyric when im bored at work.

terimalah perempuan itu..

sayang,

memoriku,kenangkan waktu-waktu dulu

sayang,

apakah hatimu,meluahkan perasaan itu

kenapa terjadi begini

ku masih teringat pelukkanmu sayangku

dan kenapa kau buat hatiku begini

cinta ini,ku simpan di hati......

c/o

perempuan itu selalu menyakitimu

selalu,tanpa malu

perempuan itu yang selalu menduga...

hanya dirimu

yang bermain dengan perasaanku

perasaanku.......ohhhh!!!

engkau yang menghancurkanku

ohhhh!!!!

hanya dirimu.....ohhhh!!!

karena kasihku,tak mengenal jemu

karena kasihku,tak mengenal rupa wajahmu

will be back fo mo post i assume.haha.

2008-06-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

today is june 15th june 2008,

so,

i would like to wish my LATE sister

a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

R.I.P

so yesterday i turned 20.

thanx frens.

family.

and today,

im delighted.

haha.

had lunch plus dinner at seoul garden.

out of nowhere,

my dad took off his wallet and give me one hundred singapore dollars.

wahlao.

i cant accept it at first.

i just cant.

i just dont have the heart to accept it.

but at last i accept it laaaarhh..woohooo.

so my dad gotta new cellphone.htc.

demm,so kool,

and bought new monitor lcd screen,

demm gr8 douggg!

i can watch videos,even bigger!haha

and also porn!just kiddin.

and new dvd set.hehe,

funnny promoter,he wrote akika on the receipt.

but actually its AKIRA!.

i just cant hold my emotions!

den my brother said,

"akika eh?"

den he replied,"yeahh its akira."

yelaaa nak' nnti uat akika yeeeee.

im dem confused by all of you nooe that.

shitt on you.

im down.really down,

but im not out!.hah.

look at that,someone called me kury,

and only she called me that.haha.

wahh ingt sehh,ingt da ke mana ntah.

as for marjan,hehe.thank you for wishin me.

haha.(how u know i gt blog sehh)mati aku.

so another few more days.

its goin to be YELLOW like a BANANA.

yeahh.

2008-06-13T16:29:00.001+08:00

it's rapstar thirteen,

and today it's june thirteen,

tomorrow is june fourteen.

you're so cooooooool.

wow!

i take it as a compliment.

2008-06-11T23:59:00.002+08:00

hi,

been a busy week.

demm.

its june beyybehh.

few more days,

and im turnin 20.

arghh dem.

whatever laaarhh.

so,my tun zahidah mariana turnin yellow.

stay tune...heh

why do this ppl still livin in this world.

i thought they extinct from this world.

they like bunch of idiot spoilin my beautiful day,

but luckily got somethin and someone there to make it better.

yeahh,i frgt..

go and die gayboys,pervert,paedophile.

disgustin' faggot.

firstly,last few weeks i went to someplace,

gotta small shop sellin viagra,

and i said to my friend,"wahh viagra laaaa.."

then the seller said,"abg nk beli?"

while touchin my arm...ouuhh myy god.

geli sehh aku..

secondly,i was eatin at someplace,

and there was this guy,like gayboy uhh,

thin moustache,he kept on starin at me..

till i cant eat..haha,and one part he "swiiit,swiit"

ouh my,i lost my appetite already.

when i was bout to leave that place,

he "swwiitttt,swiittt" at me again.shittt!!!!!

geli sehh aku....!!!

thirdly,went back to the same place sellin viagra,

and i just stare at those things.haha.

unfortunately,i stared at the same shop where the seller

touched my hands.hahaha.

mati aku!

till here,will post when i reaaaaaallyyyy feel like postin.haha

if not just do whatever u want to do uhh.

if u dont want to,you dont have to badmouth about me,

watta hell,what ive done wrong to you.

its over ok.

compare me to you,

you are morrrrrre worst than me.

dont anyhow say things bout me.

you dont even know me that well.

youre a type that playin with ppl's feelin.

shitt.shame on you jigga.

and dont put the blame on me.

suites you uh.and im *********** pissed off lookin

at your *********** face now and then.

C.R.I.P!

yaw,you dont know the road well,

then u still speed,

this is not motogp laarh,

dem,you brought this upon yourself.

and now 6 points for you.

the higher points you get,

then u can claim it at your nearest petrol kiosk..haha.

take care then brotha'.

2008-05-30T14:27:00.002+08:00

hi all,

so it's end of the month already,

and next month is JUNE..

woohoo,

cant wait for the second week,

hehe.

and so many things happened

for the last few weeks.

aah,

the most funniest thing is

when im on the way to johor,

and in the motorcycle lane

theres a lorry!!!!!

like watta hell is this your first time

goin to jb??

or cant you see the sign?haha.

all the msian riders play with their horn,

but not me,mine cannot be heard.haha

and the two days,

when im on thw way to the office,

i saw somenone so familiar from the back,

im dem sure i know this person.

out of a sudden i feel so weird.

i feelllll soooooo shockkkkkkkkkkk!!!

phew,

after a few minutes i know thats her.

ouhh my..

nahh im not angry or wanna take revenge,

if i want to,i would done it long ago...

ermmm,

hmm,

why lately so many traffic police ??

ouh my.

like so scared wanna be on the road.haha.

one after another i saw.

but luckily they didnt stop me,

example on that day,i saw one traffic police,

stoppin one taxi,dunnoe wats the reason,

suddenly it rains heavily,

then went to the nearest petrol kiosk,

and thennnnnnnnn!!!!,

this traffic police enterin this place.

i feellllll like runnin away.haha.

but luckily...he stop to wear his raincoat.

like duhhhhhh!.

so the next day i wanted to park illegally,

alaa,like normal laaaa.

but this so called the most fierce makchick PARKIN.

standin in front of me.

ouhh shittt.watt to dooooo sehhhh.

then i off my engine,

take out my cellphone,

and pretendin to talk to someone,actuali no one uhh,

luckily my cellphone on silent mode.

but then,this ah pek,ah hong(not his real name)

was sooo bad,he pointed at the motrocycle parkin illegally,

just to make him to be fine by that makchick parkin.

so,after makchick parkin do her business,

i parked my mtrcycle,haha.

luckily at the end no fine being given.

so that someone miss me ehh,haha.

RORO

aahhh u know who you are.haha.

dont forget uhh!!!.

and i will make you speechless again.hehe.

the end of the day,

i miss my tail,

i miss my old hairstyle,

why i cut it?

cant tell.

2008-05-21T19:35:00.002+08:00

so,

updated my playlist.

havin' hard times to upload those songs.

************.

and this cant be happenin'

i thought we were cool.demm.

and you,im not sensitive ok,

im just kiddin with cha'

wow,

youre the one who took it seriously.

its mess up girl.

****************.

so,this upcomin saturday,

the return of hand of magic.haha.

the legendary 88,

and many more.phewww.

i hope i wont concede too much goals.haha.

if happened,i just get furious with tha defence.haha.kiddin!

and depends on my mood that day,if it is good,

then expect me to play good.haha..i wont disappoint you

CAPTAIN!!!

but hell mann,this match gtta refferee.i hate them to the core.haha.

yaw my star,im sorri laa.

hope u free next time.haha..

rmbr uhh june ??,free urself.

demm my playlist cant shuffle,

hope u people knows how to use it.

alaaa just press the

>>,<<,> button...wahhhhhlaaaaaa!!

2008-05-17T22:30:00.002+08:00

may 16th 2008,

at last i went out with you.hehe.

u turned a my bad day to a good one.thanx.

so,went to suntec to watch 'congkak'.

actually,i was afraid so watch it,

then since already bought the ticket,

no choice but to watch it.haha.

then,i realised,congkak is a malay movie.

CONFRIM GOT MAKCHICKS.

and really got plenty of them.

and they really gt no feelings,

come the scary part they just keep quiet.aiiyoo.

and duirng the movie,

that someone wanna do sumtin stoopid.haha.(LISAAAAA!!)

so,we went to the place we first met,hehe.

cool uh.and exactly the same seat..

cuz i just reserved it.heh.

suddenly i saw a group of students,

and they are from yishun!!!!.wahlao.

but luckily im frm khatib.

just about i want to take a free ride home.haha.

from MISS WONG!!!.HAHA.u know who..

and one of them say gdbye to me.heh.(a boy actually)

and actually she cannot answer my trivia quest,

just how many boats passed by us from 2100 to 2230.?

and the answer is 43,haha.

then gt a bite,poor me gt a swollen cheek,

at the meantime one MATRAPE shout MAD!!(mud)

wahh.it thought it was me,unfortunately not.

haha.close shave.

and the time ive been waitin for

the last scene of the day,

and ive been plannin it for the last 3 months,

actually hit it off.

the two R,

a Ring and a Rose.

i hope u like it,

luckily i have the courage to do it.wow.

cool.

see,the rose got no thorns.hehe.

you're my star!

i post the pics on my next post ok?

i dunoe when,haha.

and may 17th 2008,

im late for work,

gt hm late last nite,

and slp arnd 3am?hah.gt sumone msg me.haha

aiiyoo..

lucky i speed to work.

all the people therre makin me so furious.

demm,why do this ppl still livin in this world?

i thought all of them gone already,wahlao.

and i keep my temper for at least a year actually,

take off at 1727,demm that big fat smelly busted.

watta **************** is SHE thinkin?too much.

i couldn't control it anymore,just say anything i like.haha

like nobody business.

all the people lookin at me.

luckily i didnt hit her,otherwise she would be ARWAH!!.

haha.

while she was about to move off,

i make fun of her,

that was the best part of the controversial.

even my supervisor laugh!!.HAHA.

then how can she expect me to cool it..ouhh dem.

its a hot weather and feels like hit you.woohoo.

too much of a conflict.

thanks to someone who helps me to cool down.hehe.

and no thanks to the toilet that got no water!.********

thats all for today.

see you soon!

take care everyone.

have a nice day.!!!!

i will give you time,

thats ur promise.

no more games to play alrite?

one day you will ride on it.

and one day i will tell u why i gave you that.

2008-04-29T10:34:00.002+08:00

im down.

feelin really upset and disappointed in you.

look what you have done.?

yesterday,i was so shocked that my long lost foster sister chatted with me.

woohoo.i do miss her.haha.hmm,

but i cant.

then we talk about whats goin on.

and after all that,

im in a state of dilemma.

demm it im strong..hah

so,today its been a week i fell sick.dats a record since ive been

livin in this world for 19.5years.

i think i took more than 8 tablets.haha.but still ok.

when there's a time its hard for me to fall in love with you,

and now its hard for me to let you go.

i thought it would be easy,

but no.

2008-04-27T21:27:00.002+08:00

sorry for not postin fo' the last few weeks.

im busy and felt sick...

realllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyy sickkkkkkkkkkkkkk.....

god..

thanks for understandin..

i hope to recover before may 3rd 2008..

cant do anythin except inside my room..woohooo

and got mc..

right now..i want to be alone..

SEE YOU ON MAY 3RD..DONT CANCEL OUR DATE.HAHAHA.

2008-03-29T11:24:00.002+08:00

he misses that touch,

he misses that kiss,

he misses that hug.

he don't care how much his spent on her,

as long he can be with her.

but one thing on his mind,

he thinks that he is not ready for this.

he keeps thinkin bout the past.

its not that he got someone else in his mind.

just that,

there is somethin he needs to solve first.

hope that she will understand.

WHAT GONNA HAPPEN TO ALL THIS PEOPLE?

WILL BE BACK.

2008-03-24T23:57:00.002+08:00

once again.

seems y'all gt a problem with everythin' i said.

watta hell.

i dont care at all.

mmg uhh nangis,

kerana saya ade perasaan,

dun tell me when ur parents died ure nt gonna cry.

what a joke lil boy.

stupid remark.

asshole.

you guys gt nutin better to do uhh?

crazy citizens.

and one mo thing,

omg,stop callin...then hang up..stupid faggot.

tkde keje atau ape budak2 ni?

irritatin teens uhh ni sume.

sampai kan aku kat KL pun nk uat mcm tu?

please laaaa.tolong..klw kau sayang mak bapak kau,

hentikanlahh pekerjaan itu..hoho.

tknk sudah..who cares.

and sometimes you love someone so much,

but u cannot get that person,

what is she tryin to do?

he confuses.

he keeps sayin' "i love you"

hmm,but nutin..

he sacrifices anythin for,

his time,money and so on.

even when he is tired he still talk to her on the phone.

and even when he is sick.

why can't she understand him fo once?

and give in for once?

why cant she do that?

how could she not know that he really hurt by her behaviour,

words,the way she treats him..

he just dont wanna say bout it..

bcuz all this while he still gt a feelin' for her.

and he purposely tell her that he got plenty of girlfriends,

just to see how she reacts to it.

actually he dont have a girl cntctin him in a day,

it only her.

he can only express himself through his laughter,

when he is alone.

but when he is with her,

he feels that all that problems can put it a side.

and that his life is complete.

everythin' is him,

talkin on the phone in the night with him,

sharin problems with him,

laugh with him,

sometimes u gt angry with him,

she talks bout her life with him,

arrghh,everythin' with him,

but why cant she be with him?

WHY CAN'T YOU BE HONEST WITH ME?

2008-03-17T18:12:00.002+08:00

celebratin' 730 days smoke-free.

so,when are you guys goin' to quit?

and the story still goes on..

inginkan seseorang yang benar2 ku cintai,

segala2nya telah ku beri,

hancurnya hatiku apabila mendengar penjelasanmu,

diam membisu,

tanpa kata2 yang dpt dituturkan lagi,

hanya linangan airmata yang membasahi pipi,

tiada maknanya lagi arti semua ini,

jika kau tiada di sisi.

siang dan malam hanya fikirkan tentang dikau.

diriku tanpa dirimu,

bagaikan matahari tanpa sinarnya.

dan dikaulaaa yang menyinari hari2 ku,

dalam ku keriangan dan kesusahan.

..... ........ ..... .....

how do you feel when she tell you all that stuff?

its hurt,

really hurts.

hurts deeply inside.

takes time to recover.

well,

u know.

so,not in singapore this friday.huhuhuhu

2008-03-12T11:18:00.002+08:00

he suddenly talks about death,

and my eyes suddenly turns red.

as you can see around you is no more

REAL.

watta hell.

all chnge.

a lot of murderer,

drug addicts,

sex addicts,

porn addicts,

ppl takin' subutex

takin' botox,

cheats ppl money

and many mo'.HUHU

and also hit n run,

whats happenin herre.

there's a break up

that cant even make up

so u just back up and

and shut the ****** up

she cried

and he cried.

sit all alone.

ive gone all quiet,

loss weight

no mood

aiiyoooo.

watta hellll

2008-03-08T21:23:00.002+08:00

pathetic?

me?

u must be kiddin' young fella'

..

i dunoe wat to say..

whoever or whatever you are.

haha.

i dun give a demm bout cha'

wow,there's such a ******** driva' out there.

watta hell man..

are you sick of livin?

omg.

like all of you out herre.

hmm,

matahari bersinar,

bulan mengambang,

hari yang cerah...

bintang berkelipan

mewarnai hidupmu..

WHY MUST U FALL 'SICK' NOW

MY DARLING TUN ZAHIDAH MARIANA?

WATTA HELL.ITS ONLY NEXT WEEK

TO YOUR NEXT CHECK UP

YOURE MAKING ME SOOOO DOWNN GIRLL..

WOW,MAINTAIN LERR,

NEXT WED OK?????

take care when youre overseas.

2008-03-07T19:13:00.002+08:00

so,

devastated,
disappointed,

hurt

and soooorrrrrrooowful.

ive done my best to show that

i really wannnnt youu back,

but still ,

you still in a state of....??

i understand your situation,

just imagine,

you just cant see how important you are

to me right now...aiiyooo

i dunnoe watt to sayy..

u dislike when i speed,

coz u know i may skid,

but i dislike when u cheat,

coz u know it makes me sick.

hmm,

just you dont believe what ive said,

as though i gt no feelings,

or emotions,

sometimes i cover it up..

no need...

im glad so see you after a long time

you 'disappeared' from me.

thanks.

i promise

i will change.

if....only...you...

you know what i mean..

im waitin.

and readyyyyy...

hohohoh.

WHEN SUDDENLY HE FEELS LIKE QUITTIN,

SUDDENLY SHE APPEAR IN YOU LIFE,

GIVIN U A GLIMPSE OF HOPE TO LIVE FOR.

IM SOOORYYY.

2008-03-02T16:13:00.005+08:00

im bout 30% ok,

thanks to someone who's been givin' me

HOPE to live.haha.

yeahh..im touched.so sweet of you.

you still the same person i know.

i realised my mistakes.

its hard to get you back.

and its hard for me to let you go.

reminiscing bout you.

feeliiin like..wow..

its been a long time.

so,this is life.

everything RISINN'

s*****

harga minyak naik,

harga gula naik,

harga garam naik,

harga ikan naik,

harga sayur-sayuran naik,

harga teh naik,

harga ice cream naik,

harga EEEE ARRRR PEEE naik,

harga gel naik,

darah naik,

nasib nafsu tk naik uhhhhh.

there's so many songs that makes me think bout you.

but there's no much time for me to show you

that ive changed.

yeahh time is runnin out.

and everyone is makin' me UPPP

whats wrong?

hmm,

since that day

im not myself.

thinkin,

im soorrryyyyyyy.HUHU

IVE CHANGED MY SONGGGGSS BEYYBEHHH.

no mo' "bukanlahhhh diriku...."

so you all take care,

beware.

think of your love ones.

2008-02-06T13:06:00.000+08:00

NOT SUITABLE FOR UNDERAGE.

IF YOU ARE UNDERAGE THEN DONT READ.SHITT

so hi,

this is my first post of the year.

shitt i waited so long.

came back from a long 'rest'

many ways i tried to calm myself

such as; subutex,botox and many more,

i cant recall.

but none of this things helps,

instead made me fuckin crazy mannn.

watta hell.

so,what happened the last few weeks since im gone.?

few things happened.

wow.

some things that i cant share with you all,

such fuckin nonsense confidential.

bullshitt.

so many people i met.

the good ones,the bad ones.

some of them freakin me out.

YOU'RE A STALKER.

get that?

so people said ive changed,

i said time changed.

well,depends.

if the sun shine brightly.

if not..u know.

stress up some of things that cant get out of my mind

right now.

then,all this people just anyhow say.

like this will be their last breath.

i put my trust on you all this while,

but u blew it girl.

u fuckin play me.

as though im a toy

huh?

so what.

think bout it,

we could be together,

but u ruin it now.

think about it.

now i just hope u be happy,

cuz i dun care bout girls,i care bout speed

hahahaa.laugh till dawn.

BEWARE,

WHO SAID THERE'S NO RAPSTAR?

NO 13.

SHITT ON YOU.

ANYHOW SAID.

WELL IM BACK U FUCK ME .HAHA

2007-12-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

and the story goes on and on..

this is not the first time girl,

u treatin me like this.

that's why im prepared.

it was late in the nite,

i called u umpteen times.

but u never even answer it.

watta hell yaw.

i waited for u to call me back,

but no,u dun even have the interest to call me back.

u have the heart to chillin down with ur 'frens'

until nite.

but i like a fucker who's been waitin for ur

msg.and call.

but u gimme the attitude.

u took advantage of me girl.

what u think i am?

a pimp?watta fuck.

and u cancelled our date.

just to work?

watta hell mannnnnn'

horrendous,and unbelieveable.

i sacrifice not to meet the other just

to meet u on friday the 28th.

but fucckk man,u just fuck me ....again..

this is just too much..

i dun want u to be NUMBER 3.

but ure the ine nominated urself to this.

ouhh god,i just can't believe it man.

hu the hell actin strange now.

you or me,

ure blamin cntct with other chicks

that even i dun cntct with

wat a nice fairytale.

if u dun want me

say so.

ure treatin me like a hell.

woohoo.

feelin shitt.

and another story,

this fuckin lorry driver

just fuckin insane mann,

ouhh shiit,

i'll be a dead meat be now.

bodoh tul.

while smokin?

shiit on u mann,

NO MATTER WHATWILL HAPPEN,

EVEN IF THE SUN DUN SHINE FOREVER,

BUT I WILL STILL LOVE U FOREVER.

WHAT IVE DONE?

IVE BECOME MO AND MO LIKE A NOTORIOUS

FAGGOT.

I MISS YOU GIRL.

I MISS YOU THE OL' AHMAD

2007-12-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

hi all,

nice to meet y'all again herre.

what are the things u do

when u feelin down?

whyy am i livin in this world.

the person i love most just treated me

like she doenst love me anymo'

watta.

whyy girl.

u dont know how disappoint

i am after what u hv done to me.

and u just dont know

how serious i am towards you.

but u bein cold towards me.

ouhh what happened.

ive chngd A LOT

aftr i met u.

just for u to know.

aarghhh

when u gt a big problem

that u dun hv time to fuckin solve it.

and now what u want me to do?

leave yaa just like that.

what u think i am?

wow...thats too much to ask for.

it was november 9th.

if u forget.

how close we are now,since that day.

we nvr argue with each othr,

and know..WATTA.

as if u want me to keep a distance from you.

i cant believe it,

and u keep accusin me girl

aargghh..

if i can still be patient.

i will ..if not..u might as well kill me.

i LOVE YOU.and you?

2007-12-22T10:34:00.000+08:00

i treat you like a princess,

you're my one and only.

but then,

u still treat me like duhh..

its ok.

i love ya.

so take care.

jgn nk mcm2.

AARGHH IM SICK.

2007-12-14T11:17:00.000+08:00

hi,

how u ppl out there been doin?

i've been busy.

no time fo' this.

so,problems around me.

yet to settle.

at this moment i really feel down.

omg.

really.

not kiddin'.

first time at work i didnt laugh.

smile.

what is happenin to me yaw.?

is this the end.

u hope so,

i hope not.

when i really miss the ol' ahmad.

where the fuck is he.?

and,

i've been so patient towards u guys.

but u play shit outta me.

i've tolerate with u all this while.

but now u look what is happenin.

EVEN THOUGH I GT ALL THIS PROBLEMS,

BUT THIS DOESN'T STOP ME FROM

LOVIN AND ALL OTHER BULLSHIT.

MAHH,PAHH IM SOORY..

I CRIED THAT FAITHFUL NIGHT.

CUZ,I REALISED,

I ADMIT,

IVE CHANGED.